Jan 24-30, 2021

 

 For some reason, this weeks photos loaded in reverse order. I could fix it but they're in order and I'm lazy and have other things to do today. The 5 or so people who look at this will have to deal.

Jan 17-23, 2021

 I am feeling differently about this iteration already. I hesitate to say it but here I am in the middle (we hope past middle, but it may not be to the middle yet!) of a pandemic and there feels like a kind of hope or determination that I'll complete a third iteration. 

Is this tempting fate to state it? Time will tell! 

I did have a Covid-19 test last week. Someone I work with tested positive. I haven't had close contact with the person for a couple of weeks, but it was close enough to get tested. It came back negative. As the pandemic rages on, as it mutates, and as the vaccines are being distributed . . . I'm going to get up each morning and take a photo of myself. 

To the best of my ability. 

Jan 10-16, 2021

 I'm posting two weeks tonight, but going to give each week a separate post. I don't have a reason other than that's what I feel like doing. 

2021 here we go again

 It's been five years again. And right now, no one sees me much of any time much less first thing in the morning.  But it seems an excellent time to try for some intimacy with the world so here we go. 

Already, you see early morning problems. The very first day, I hold the date upside down. January 9 is dated with '20 rather than '21. I hope these are not omens and just relegated to my own waking fog. 

You'll also notice that it took a few days to settle on a location for the photos. I'm in a different apartment than I was 5 years ago. At first I thought I'd step out onto the balcony for the natural morning light, which was nice but also washed out the date on January 2. I think I've settled on a corner of my living room for the rest of the year but I can't see the future.

Finally, for this third iteration, I'm going with portrait rather than landscape orientation. Whoa! Shaking things up!

I have other thoughts about this iteration. The "performance of loneliness for an audience of no one" is probably still in there, but I feel something else under the decision  this time. In a year of pandemic and political unrest, there is an aspect of "I'm still here!" Defiance of destructive forces and intention to go no where. Hope that I will complete a third iteration. There's more here this year. 

I may write more as these things come more into focus.